Everyone talks about the differences between the first born, the middle child, and the baby in the family, but does that really affect how you grow up. It might influence the way your parents treat you, but there are so many other factors and moments and ideas that end up influencing your life that the order in which you were born shrinks to a minuscule percent of affecting your growth.
Here I want to talk about the emotions and feelings that are experienced as you grow up.
I am a college student in my twenties and I have had may fair share of ups and downs. right now, I am having many debates with myself about my ex. I constantly have this internal conflict going within me about how I truly feel about him and if I just broke up with him because I was scared. Then I think about how I have never really been with anyone else and so how can I be thinking about these things when I have not had any other experiences in my love life. After debating this for hours, I end up at a stand still with myself and feel that I need to put myself out their more to try and overcome my internal struggles.
The main reason I am sharing this part of my life is that everyone goes through conflict. Everyone goes through ups and downs. Everyone has been uncertain about making certain decisions. And everyone has been on that emotional roller coaster before. In the end, you are never alone. Growing up has its crazy, amazing, horrific, wonderful moments, but it is what you do with those moments and if you learn from those moments that make a difference.
I honestly do not know if anyone will read this, but I hope I can shed some light on even a few of the emotions that can be faced when growing up. If I can help make meaning of even a few, then maybe I can help someone make a difference in their lives and touch the people around them.
Signing off for now,
G.P
